The Fountain of Youth 2025-09-28

 

Today I shall try something a little different. I am going to write out a few questions and see if I can focus on getting some answers. Note: I summarized the answers below the questions. It did work. Also note, "I" and "You" and "We" get mingled a lot. They're all kind of one and the same, but sometimes I'm writing what I hear them saying and sometimes I'm writing the thought I obtain as a revelation to myself. So "I" can still be what "they" are telling me.

1. Is there more for me to learn beyond inner work via the sacrament?
1. Learning how to do the inner work
2. More trust and knowledge come with alignment.
3. It's not even solely about trust, it's about ability. You can't hear what goes beyond your alignment. Inner conflict silences less ordinary information.
4. You must learn to calm and master yourself so that you can hear clearly.
2. Am I communicating externally or internally?
1. It's like both. We're your parts but we get attunement via your "channel."
3. Should I continue the sacrament without specific intention just to see what comes up?
1. If you have intention, use it, but keep the right channel and what you don't know can be revealed.
4. Should the sacrament be used as a means of re-tuning on the regular?
1. Absolutely
5. What is today's lesson?
1. I have re-learned how to feel brotherly love.
2. I have learned how to treat such relationships
3. I was abusing my relationship, and that is a mistake to fix. We will live with the consequences, but that is what growth is all about. 

Me writing until I feel something else is taking over:

I believe the ability to feel is the most important aspect. We need to be able to feel the River. It is a very emotional concept rather than a head concept. As we age, we often forget how to feel. Excitement of newness wanes. We forget love because we don't practice it enough. This is the real meaning behind Jesus' statements that we must become like children. They can still feel while our hearts turn to stone. We forget how it feels to feel. The River is something we must intentionally seek on occasion to keep ourselves in tune and prevent forgetting. The sacrament can help remember. At first it will be hard to stay in tune. Regular reminders may be necessary. 

[Starting to Blur]

Remembering how to feel is the first step. Finding the right tuning fork is the second step. The third step is aligning with that tuning. This will start challenging, ups and downs. But once you can align wholly on the regular and keep the level up, that's when things get spicier.

Continue speaking within myself so I can hear it and then feel later or at that time what feels correct. The words aren't us, the feelings are. You will then get a feeling impression on whether or not things are adding up. You feel it all the time. Like with your letter earlier you felt a twinge. [yeah, but I don't know that I think someone's been there the whole time while I wrote it]

It's that idea, not that instance per se. [I feel like that was my rationalization] That's the point. You got the twinge telling you that. [So I did] You thought you were interrupting us but you were communicating yourself and we responded with a nudge. [So why are there long gaps?] Tuning is hard. And you stop concentrating as you get distracted. Understandable though. And you shouldn't interrupt those gaps per se. Let it do its thing. Go with the flow.

Whoever is aligned with the current mood can speak. 

Perform actions from the right mindset and learn to feel what each one feels like. The more you perform, the more you can attune to the feeling and know how to attune.  We want to feel all the good feelings at once. They have their own unique way of feeling. Learn them. Invite them in regularly. Feel them. And when you've gather them up, you combine the tuning in a way to get the River's tune. Tune with all good waves. This is easier with the right perspectives. Learning to tune the emotions will enable learning how to tune with the right nudges in life.

[Internal revelations about my friendship]

I should tell him what I actually want. How I wish our relationship could be. Because you can see doing it beside him. He was your best friend and you're letting him go because you're thinking he's stuck. He may be, but by golly fight for that. That's what it means to fight for a friend. Learn brotherly. Why am I engaging with him not like a brother? So quickly and easily you could do away with him. Yes, because I thought or never considered he may want to hang with you. Ask. It's a whole weird conversation. Ask and give him the option if he wants to take the ride with you. You assume it's not an interest but you don't consider how not going with you means he's giving up on the relationship, not you. You're pushing him away instead.

These are indeed the insights we can give with your struggles. You don't feel right so you don't know the right approach. When you learn how to feel, the right approach comes naturally. Living love gives one approach to things. Feeling  brotherly and thinking outside some weird assumptions, just talk about it. I am sorry to lose this and I never asked him to go along with the journey--I just assumed he wouldn't be interested and then one day unloaded on him. You had already given up when you didn't start from a feeling of brotherly.